Some of the beautiful things being said to me lately:

I just want to document some of the amazing people in my life. All anonymously of course, but these messages from friends old and new, mine and his, have really been helping me. Thank you, to everyone who has cared about me, when I haven’t even cared about myself. 

  • You’re a really sweet woman Lauren, but I believe in my heart that he isn’t ready to commit to anyone on that level. The best advice I can give is truly try and let him go… I know its hard, but only in that way can clearly change his mind. give it some time. Life is worth living even if you don’t have him. You will make new memories… Good ones… Nothing will ever be the same, but be strong and everything will work itself out.
  • It sucks that this happened to you, and you’ll be better in the long run, no matter how this turns out. i hope you find your solace, you don’t deserve even a minute of grief. I would like to think that I know you, and if you were the girl that i knew, that kid must be off his rocker and i think you might just be okay on your own. You’re a good kid Lauren, a treasure. and a shiny one at that keep your head up kid, i miss you, good night.
  • I was just telling **** yesterday that you guys were perfectly matched interest wise. i just hope that he see’s how dumb he’s being because he has the real deal in his hands and he’s throwing it away. i just can’t imagine why anyone would throw away someone as earnestly caring and outgoing as you. I hope you find your smile again soon. You’re too great to be this down. No one should be worth this pain especially since he’s the one making this choice. Its not like he was hurt/killed in an accident and was taken too soon. He’s giving up. If you can’t open his eyes, then try to keep in mind that its him, not you. This is the real application of that cliché break up line. We love you. Keep that in mind as you try to fight through this. We’re not next door, but the internet and cell phone business make it nearly that way. Well, i’m not one to take sides in a break up. I think that’s high school shit and grown ups shouldn’t act that way. I love you both and I refuse to lose one friend to “stay loyal” to the other especially when the friend that came first is the one I see as making a mistake. Andrew’s not ready to love so the perfect girl standing in front of him doesn’t register. i understand. But don’t beat yourself because he’s not reached the emotional maturity relationship wise to see that you two are great together. 
  • You’re not worthless. You’re amazing and wonderful. You used to live for so much more than one boy. Remember that always. You have friends, family, pets, aspirations and dreams to follow still. 
  • I hope everything is going alright given the circumstances. I can speak first hand about how the male species is a weird and unpredictable breed capable of great things and even greater douche-bag-y-ness from time to time. I really don’t like that you’re going through such a hard time. You’re an awesome person. A person that I have looked up to for a long time. And you’re the kind of person that will overcome all, no matter how hard it is. 
  • Hey girl, I know that we don’t know each other..like at all.. But I’ve seen some of your posts, and I’m really sorry about your breakup. I went through an awful breakup 2 years ago. We’re talking like slept on my parents’ floor for a month at age 23, saw multiple counselors, sobbed in public way too many times bad. Once I was driving to work and I was full out sobbing. I was stopped at a red light and the man in the car next to me got my attention. He asked me If I was ok, and I just nodded. And he asked again, and I said I’d be ok. Then he said “ok, I’ll pray for you.” It was an interesting and encouraging little moment. It didn’t get easier immediately after that, but time (sometimes a ridiculous amount of time) really does heal all wounds. And like that stranger offered to pray for me, I’ll pray for you. I know it’s hard, but keep fighting.
  • I am so sorry to read about what you’re going through and I know for a while nothing is going to make it feel any better. When I was a sophomore in college, I was in a very serious relationship, and had been in it for some time. I was convinced this was the guy I was going to marry and put my heart and soul into the relationship. It was one of the most devastating things in my life when he, without warning, broke it off. I know exactly how you feel, and what you are going through, because I have been there myself. I always used to think, what is wrong with me and why did this happen to me? All I can say is that a little while later I met the man I am now married to. If I had still been involved with that other guy, I would not have even given **** a second thought or glance and I would have missed out on a world of happiness. It has made me a firm believer that things do truly happen for a reason and I absolutely believe that when you are ready, you will find that reason right around the corner. In the meantime, I wish you health and happiness. You have many friends new and old that love you and perhaps for a while you can sit back and let your friends spoil you with some good times.
  • Hey lady, I know we haven’t talked in forever, but I noticed that some thing were sucking pretty hard in your life right now, and I wanted to say I still sincerely you. If you need a drink while you’re in Ohio, I’m bartending through my master’s degree right now, and it’s all on the house for people formally known as Mussolini. Hang in there chick.
  •  you ok girl? how are you holding up? i was literally JUST THERE 7 months ago. i know exactly how you are feeling and it is miserable to say the least. please talk to me if you need anything. you deserve someone great and you will find him! it gets so much better and easier. just give it time. hugs from the 513!

Ohio has hills… Baton Rouge, not so much

Today seemed like as good a day as any to get out of bed for once. I decided to go for a longer run/walk around the Fort Liberty and Wetlands parks, and I quickly realized something: I taught myself how to run in possibly the flattest state there is. And Ohio… has a bunch of hills. So, all in all, I probably ran about 3 miles, and walked the other 2, but considering what my life has been like over the past 3 weeks, I’ll take it. 

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Lol, mirror shot. My shirt says, “What’s better than great?” on the front, and on the back says “Me.”

In other news, the Disney Princess Half Marathon is officially sold out! Only 215 more days, so I am going to have to get my butt in gear. I am so excited to run this (Glass Slipper Challenge, what what?!) next February with Rachael. It is going to be amazing, and I am ready to see Beast’s castle again, this time with someone who will ALWAYS love me.

ImageTomorrow is the Sawyer Point 25th birthday bash at the riverfront, so I am going to try to talk either mom or dad into heading down there for a bit, seeing as I am 25 also! I’ve been trying to get down to Sawyer Point for 2 weeks now, so maybe tomorrow’s the day. I’d love to see how much it’s changed in the past few years- those spray gardens look awesome.

I’ve also found some more runs to get involved in: Little Miami half marathon, and Shamrock Shuffle. I will also be signing up for the Earning your Glass Slipper Challenge and the Beauty and the Beast Virtual Challenge. I need those medals for my currently non existent collection!

First run, out of the worst 2 weeks of my life.

Andrew (the absolute love of my life), my boyfriend of three years, broke up with me two and a half weeks ago. I haven’t run since. 

Todays the first day I even considered running. I didn’t feel like it, it didn’t make me happy like it used to, and I threw up. Over 1.2 miles. I have lost all of the stamina, endurance, and progress I’d made over the last 2 months. I didn’t eat for 2 weeks straight after he broke up with me, I went to the ER, and I’ve lost 15 pounds. My body, physically any way, is trashed. 

But I did it. So there’s that. 

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I actually completed my run before 2pm?

So, since the restaurant closes at midnight on Sunday’s, I actually got to bed at a decent hour! Which meant, I woke up around 9:30am feeling more like it was noon. When I noticed how early it was, I decided to go for a run! 

Since we’d laid out at the pool all day yesterday, I’m a bit of a lobster. I had to SLATHER on the sunscreen today, and I still feel the burn on my arms and back. Note to self: invest in a hat, and some aerosol sunscreen. I was pretty pumped to start out with- today was day one of week eight of my couch 2 5k app- I’ve been running 3x a week for two months? How did that happen?! I am very proud of myself for sticking with it this time, even if there have been some bumps along the way. I’ve gained a bit of weight back (relatives visiting and pms will do that to you) that I need to lose again, but nothing I can’t handle. BRING IT ON!

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Workout Recap

I don’t know if it was the sunburn or what, but even though the temperature was cooler today than it has been, I was DYING after three miles… so I walked the four miles back. I did spend about 20 minutes sitting on someone’s dock on the lake, just enjoying the shade and the sound of the water- which I think helped my stress level a LOT. See, look how pretty it was!

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LSU Lakes, from someone’s dock!
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Ran through LSU down Highland Rd. for a change of scenery. SO many freshmen!

So all in all, not a terrible way to spend my morning. I still need to figure out a way to get out there while it’s still dark, or find a CHEAP gym or treadmill, because it’s not even summer yet, and I am melting out there.

I’ve also found some virtual runs I’m planning on signing up for, that I thought people might be interested in- they all benefit great causes!

I’m also looking into the Jazz Half Marathon in NOLA, the Rock N Roll Half Marathon in NOLA next year, and the Baton Rouge Half Marathon next year. Who wants to be my running buddy?!

2 runs this week!

Alrighty. So on June 11th, I ran 2 miles, walked 5 more, cause it was hotter than HADES outside. So while I would have loved to say I ran all 7 miles… ain’t no way that was happening. Today, I ran 2 miles no stopping, then walked .8 home…after 5 hours of sleep and a 10 hour workday. Soooo…. I’m counting that as a win! I tried to go over to the Catholic High School to run on their track, but apparently they dislike sharing, ’cause the gates were chained shut. I was pretty bummed. I need to find out if LSU lets people on their track. I need to squeeze in one more run AT LEAST this week- I’m on my last week (week EIGHT!) of my C25K app… and I’m considering purchasing the Jeff Galloway Half Marathon App- anyone use it before?

Highlights from this week: 

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Recap of the June 11th run.

 

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Sunset view of the LSU lakes… no filter!

I’ve also decided to earn myself some BLING as I train for the Glass Slipper Challenge, so I will be signing myself up for a virtual 19.3 mile run, called “Earning My Glass Slipper”. I’ve got to admit, the hardware is adorable, and fits right in with the theme of all of this hard work! I think it’ll look lovely next to my THREE medals from GSC. 

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Earning my Glass Slipper Virtual 19.3

That’s all for now!

Glass Slipper Challenge- Princess Weekend at Walt Disney World!

Well, it’s official- I’ve lost my mind. Not only did I register for the Princess Half Marathon, I registered for the 10k the day before. So now Rachael and I will be part of the first year of Glass Slipper Challenge winners, with a total of THREE medals and shirts. 

If you think that a half marathon is just a walk in the park, put your endurance to the test and compete in the all-new Glass Slipper Challenge! A 19.3-mile adventure held over two days, participants will run the Disney Enchanted 10K on Saturday, followed by the Disney Princess Half Marathon on Sunday. If you finish both races within the pacing requirements, you will be awarded the all-new Glass Slipper Challenge medal in addition to your Half Marathon and 10K finisher medals. Image

I am SO EXCITED! Now, to go run in 100* heat. Andrew, JD, Elyse, Donna, Shawn, Chris, EVERYONE: there is still a TON of time to register for the 5k, 10k, and half marathon before prices increase. PLEASE consider joining us for a magical weekend!

Is it a fluke, or real progress?

I just wanted to share with y’all, that I am 5 pounds away from my weight loss goal! I started this journey on March 6th, at almost 140 lbs, which is a lot on my little 5’3″ frame. I am now down to 120 pounds, just a short ways away from 115 where I wanted to be.

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I haven’t gotten to run since 5/21- a 7 miler. It’s been so hot outside, and I’ve been so consumed with work,I haven’t gotten a chance since. Hopefully, I’ll be able to go on a 3 miler tomorrow before I have to be at work 4pm-2am. Tonight, I’ll probably be getting off around 5am, so maybe I’ll be able to run before I crash! 

So, my “goal date” to lose this weight was 5/19, but even though that date has come and gone, and I’m not 115 yet, I’m still so proud I’ve lost 18 lbs! 

New goals: 115lbs, continue to shape my body with Pilates and running, and keep training for the Disney Princess Half!

 

Not feelin’ it this week…

So this week, I ran three miles one day, and jogged 3.5/walked 3.5 another day. But I don’t feel ANY better. I close every day this week, so I am hoping to run at least 4 days, and see if I can cheer myself up. Don’t really have too much to say on that front. 

Photo updates from my 2 runs:

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Workout outfit, all on sale!
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LSU lakes
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Brandon’s Chug n Run going away party- chug a beer, run a mile!

I just want to RUN RUN RUN and make myself happy. The farther I run, the less I think about how many things are just WRONG in my life right now, and how few people actually care about how not ok I am. As long as I’m running, and as long as working towards the Disney Princess half… I can ignore how NOT ok everything is. 

Just… keep me in your thoughts, and help me keep up this running habit. It’s been 7 weeks!

I’m a slacker, and I’m mad about it

Well, since my last post, I’ve been on one 3 mile run, and one 2.7 mile walk. Wtf. This week has been eye-opening for me, in showing me what I need to change in my life in order to be happy.
1) exercise- I need to make more time for running.
2) a job, or volunteer in my field- I need to utilize my degree.
3) my financial situation- pay my loans, and still be able to function.
4) take time for me- alone, reading, or running, or buying myself flowers. I just need to take time to breathe.
This next week WILL be better, and I will continue to make 2013 my best year yet.
-Lauren

Flowers for myself!

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Monday’s run.

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Feeling unmotivated? Go outside, lazy!

Well yesterday was my first day off of work in… eight days. That’s right- I worked 8 days (2 parties, one UFC fight, and a ladies night), all with no day off. In the restaurant world… that blows. At the end of Sunday’s shift, I quite literally wanted to cry. Even more so, when while closing the store at Midnight, the last guest asked me “why do you close up so fast? We’re all having fun here- no need to be a bitch”. Ugh. 

So needless to say, I spent ALL DAY Monday on the couch, reading a book. I didn’t do a damn thing. I ate some bagel bites, took a bubble bath, bought a facial, and took some time for me (for once).

…And then I felt guilty. I had not only eaten terribly, I had wasted an entire beautiful day inside, just because I felt burnt out. So this evening (once it cooled down- I’m not crazy), I went for a short run around downtown Baton Rouge. I’m still doing the whole C25K app on my Iphone thing, so today was 5 min warm up, run for 8 minutes, walk for 5, run for 8, and cool down for 5. By that point, I was about 2.6 miles from home, so I walked the rest of the way back, and just…breathed. And it was wonderful. I feel so much less stressed, calm, and ready for my 7am-5pm shift tomorrow. 

Moral of the story? Even when I’m feeling burnt out, and tired, and ready to quit… I HAVE to just get out there. Once I’m outside, I’ll never regret it. And no matter how slow I go- I’m still lapping everyone on the couch. 

Photo highlights from today’s run: 

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Mississippi River, looking south

 

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Sunset

 

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Looking North, at Exxon

 

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The Old Arsenal
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The Old State Capitol
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Downtown BR Square